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wow my sister just whispered something to my neice whilest i was surfin junkylife and subliminaly it brought back a memorie of a time before heron had introduced itself to me. and it was timeline est:1984 my sis and i were returning from new yorks oldest bar at /near the  south street seaport at the bottom of manhatten opposite brooklyn or as i like to say crooklyn.anyway after 1/2 a dozen or so heinekins and not wanting to stay  all dressed up in our monkee suits (monkee on my back) well anyway we get the car  and head up the west side near the tri-beca, gansvoort markets, little west 14th street. and just before the lincoln tunnel all of a sudden we get BANG!!! hit from behind by a little inspektor clueso/puegeot car and it all happened so fast yet my spidysense was tingling and i knew something was wrong with this picture of me and my sis all dressed up for a nice evening at the opera(bar) driveing home in our usa made rear wheel drive chevrolet 4dr caprice. it had a nice heavy duty type of bumper and as i took the bump from this stupid looking little french car i then noticed a bunch of jamaicans hanging their dredlocks out of the windows yelling for us to stop. but for some unknown reason ,cause thats what just about any non street wise couple from the suburbs would have deffinately done. well i asked my sibling if she was ok what with her being more then a few months pregnato that being my main concern was for her safety and that also i then continued with the dredlocks chaseing me hoping to find a cop when of course i could use one. no luck so here comes the entrance for the tunnel to new jersey and i took it gladly.

where upon tomorrows another day. i then proceeded to notice a newspaper article and then it was on the tv news that the everloving criminal element in n.y.city has a new game its been playing on unsuspecting visitors to the big apple, and that was the ol bump,rob,then run…..oh well just another adventure in the naked city. i got plenty more tales to tell,all yah gotta do is ask.

well well well……..well?? ah maybe something short,sweet…..naaaaah fughedabouditt.
oh well strange way were having with the change of seasons. supposedly were now entering the fall/winter faze but this just about being the last week of october and i’m still useing my central air conditioning from day to day. oh but good news for some of you know about my not having heat working in my part of the house for the previous two-three years. wow what electric bills we was getting. anyway it’s fixed and i havent used it yet and here we are just about in the 11th month of 2007 wow that just reminded me 23-24 years of using dope wow wheres the party? should we be celebrating another anniversery of total stupidity on my part?
now i’m not complaining nor am i bragging ,maybe i am bitching a bit. cause believe you me i am tired and totally disatisfied with the chase with no rewards. but when if ever will i get used to it? never i hope. its just that for once i would like to stick with it when ever i say thats it. enough i’ve had more then enough of the constant chase and hassle just to medicate myself from reality. i sure do know what needs to be done ,the right thing to do per say? but thats to easywell the idea is to easy to figure out and sure its always abit uncomfortable to leave familier surroundings and change. a major change it will/would be but what a concept REALITY wow!! anyway the thought has always been there but ….but it’s amazing how it seems that whenever that seed of thought is planted and about to take hold,well then all of a sudden the gear come’s out kickin fer a few days/weeks and derails my plans/efforts.seriously though talk about being sick and tired of being sick and tired. i am i am, fer sure i am……more later dawgg,

well i was responding to a post on opiophile.com at the piss and moan forum titled “pissed at self” and so i was about to hijack  the thread when it occurred to me that all my ranting would make  a decent blog entry. well we shall see. so as fast as i could get over here to my blog, to then realize  just what the hell was it that got me so riled and worked up? damned if’n i know hah.

oh oh yeah yeah now i remember that post was  about coping fer long term reasons    such as grabbing a bundle or two cause of the three day weekend. and lo & behold burning them up&out within days, as compared to the week you supposedly had hoped they would last you. hah!well when i read that i was like geez… welcome to the club. cause that’s where i am presently at myself, except i went and blew a good portion of my gratefully received full weeks pay. yeah buddie a full week which is no joke. being cause i hardly have had a full five day work week do to the rainy weather and or also the drop off in selling,buying & building houses over here by me.that, and for some reason these building contractors held off on most of there heavy land development untill now. i mean piss me off damn! now i have my choice of at least a half dozen jobs to go on come Tuesday but where might i ask were all these jobs that need doing in such a hurry where were they 2 -4 weeks  months ago? that’s why i’m staying with this one excavator that has promised me a full 6-8 weeks of easy hauling. all i have to do is show up and he’ll have the work for me that day.unless it rains then it’s usually a no-go. because of the site conditions.ahhh hell so enough about me. how’s by you?

ok where have i been? it august and we’ve been getting more then enough rain and precip,especially towards the evening. what with sporadic thunderstorms they wont run any of the road milling equipment if theres an ioda of a chance that shit weather is the main feature for the evening. I’m talking about night shift trucking that i’m offered as makeup for dayshifts lost do to the lousy housing market that’s totally fucked up the construction boom of the past ten years or so. I haven’t had a 5 day work week all summer so far due to either slo/no work or inclimate weather cancelations. just as well i dislike driveing a empty or loaded tandem dump truck 20,000lbs empty 70,000plus loaded. them four wheelers will do anything so as not to have to ride behind a big ugly dump truck and then once they get around and in front they hit there brakes and slow down to half the speed limit…..man what’s up with that? some shit will just never change that go’s with pulling out in front of you for god know’s what if any good reason but moreso just because they dont want to have to be behind you.  and so they’ll make you go into panic emergency stand on the brakes collision drive over the idiot car mode when to top it all theres no one behind you anyway! it’s like if you go out of your way to either let some idiot car come out of the side street or if they do the stupid pull out and fuck you up move it’s more often just to go 50 feet up and then decide oh yeah i gotta make a left now. it’s times like these that make me just wanna………..take a guess folks…

it makes me wanna……….

cry?

yell and hollar cuss woids?

drive over and or just ram and tee bone the stupid sorry for living mother fuckers?

get high? 

hah self medication wait i’m sorry it’s ummmm treatment for intractable pain. which isn’t funnie nor far from the truth cause i’m 5′9 over 260 lbs and i have been climbing and jumping outta big rigs and dirt excavation equipment since before i’ve been old enough to legally drive /operate them. and so i do thank goodness that i am very tolerent to pain and always have been. but so to only an extent. then the medication comes in as a saving grace. ouch! what with this extra weight i got on me mid section and what with jumping outta them big rigs and all it deffinatly takes it’s toll on all my legg and ankle/feet joints and such. I used to jump in and out of all the machines and trucks like hell on wheels. but now it’s like slo-motion in and slo-mo out easy does it driver . there yah go…..warning don’t get too close to truck-driver it will bite or harm you if you get too close!!!!

happy memorial day, and a big thanks to all those that have fought for the freedoms and rights that we as americans  have and enjoy this day in all of our lives. damn straght!!

well i slept thru another parade that passes by my block and by the time i hear the pounding of the base drums and i get my ass out there, all i get to see is the guy with the broom and shovel picking up the horse balls. which is kinds exciting being that it brakes up the monotony of this small wannabe town i have been living in fer the past 47 years. oh yeah the one good thing is following the parade down to behind the borough hall and joining the elks, and the fireman, and whoever else was invited to march in the parade, to the beer wagon for the bottomless mugs of beer here!! yum

but even with the offer of free beer i prefer to do my drinking (and drugging) in the privacy of my own home. ya digg?

ya know i always thought it wrong and fucked up and selfish of the attitude my pops always carried around abouts people and such as follows,

you dont want nuthin from nobody,and nobody to want nothing from you! hah i always thought that to be kinda fucked up but i’ll tell ya what, as the years have been rolling by i can now relate to those magnificently selfish thoughts do to the dealing with assholes that i do on a constant basis. and telling myself that i will not allow myself to be caught up in those type situations ever again……untill the next time. lol

anyway peace and love to all

sweet….respect da/dawgg,

Hi all, hope things are going well for you all. I originally meant to put out a post about junkie ethics and trust issues and i’ll return to that in a sec what’s come into mind now is the bitch and moan that just seems to came at  alot of us on a constant basis.  how’s it go on those t-shirts…..excuse me but obviously you’ve mistakin me for some one who gives a shit!?

hardy har har, life’s a bitch and then you die! this much we all know.tell me some thing i don’t.

well more later my peeps

love da/dawgg,

man it scares the bejesus outta me ta think where & what some of my fellow bloggers  might be up too. it’s almost like when i see someone that’s been away fer awhile,I’m almost afraid to ask how their significant others are and finding out bad news ………well i walked away from the start of this post possibly due too my main reason of endurance or in otherwords some one needed a fix more later.

 dawgg,

hey y’all god bless. well just to respond to afew other blogs you know who you are and so yeah i feel ya’s. I most certainly do! I agree that it’s definitely been quite awhile since many of us updated our blogs and i am most certainly guilty of doing same. blame it on life in general, life go’s on and so do we. with the battle at hand and whatever our interest’s are at this time.I figured instead of writing under the influence gibberish which i am quite good at doing and it being such a bore in most aspects. so i refrained and feeling bad doing so but with the excuse that hey no news is good news.

anyway damn straight the fact that life go’s on. hey you know a hard time is coming when you have to call for ems to have your pops taken to the emergency room and thank god over to the nursing home where intensive physical therapy is hopefully going to get him back on his feet and home to my mom. his wife and he is her husband going on 55 years wow!! hey i just noticed i have a few drafts that i started but apparently did not finish and since i am still in my addiction and being sick at the moment my memory wans to when the question of i wonder if my IRS tax return has deposited itself in to my bank account and it being so frickin cold 14%degrees outside daytime high of 18%degrees gonna run love you all

dawgg,

some day i’ll learn, some day eventually. hah! it could happen, one can dream can;t one? the reason i jest is all this time i’ve been writing post’s and thinking i’ve been doing wrong when just now i write a page instead of a post and at first i was freaking cause i couldn’t find the listing but alas it’s above all of the post listing so enjoy my friends. well since i’m here it would be a shame to waste this post on just this gibberish. so back to my original bitch and moan rant winter it’s a here. don’t have to wait for it much more now. I fucked up by not getting to the repairs to the furnace that i swore i was going to have easily get done during the summer season. where did it go so fast. damn! that and i have a landscape cleanup back and front yards have to bring all the leaves into the street so’s the town can have it.or else it’s mine to keep, come spring. that means i’d have to bag it all. no i don’t think so. sears in the morning for 2 metal lawn rakes and a giant canvas or plastic type tarpaulin. not sure decisions jeesh. and finally i got my hands on a new chainsaw. I just have to figure out if it’s a pre-mix or not. in general i’ve a list of outdoors crap to be done snow blowers etc. etc.

part of my situation is i just don’t get the energy boost that i once did from the dope like i used to man i could paint the entire house interior and exterior in a weekend no problem and cleaning oh man, my family put up with my manic rantings all these year due to the end result of my leaving a spotless kitchen bathrooms, all around no problemo. kinda scary sometimes though cause i wouldn’t recognize where i was when i did wake up i was like wholly crap what’s happened and so my peep’s untill we meet again peace,

Steve da/dawgg

keep it simple stupid!!=KISS!! ok so where does this leave me? I mean that and 50 cents will get you as far as your looks can!and that my friend you can thank your parents and that night of the full moon beside the barn with the bales of hay.oh how romantical,could it be love? If only for one night…ahhhhhhh speaking of which where is that blackbitch you know the one and only blackdog herself.now there ya go that’s trulely unrelentless truely

ABOVE IS TYPICAL EXAMPLE OF BEING UNDER THE INFUANCE OF DOPE KIDS BE WARNED!!!