I moved and I’m currently:
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Come visit. I’m lonely over there. Change your links if you have me linked somewhere other than junkylife. I might be back here but who knows. Why are you still reading this? Get over to the new blog! NOW!
LOSER!
NOW!
IS this thing on?
:) So if this last month or two have been the “sick months” for me. I know I complain about little things here and there and seem like a TOTAL hypochondriac but well …I am I guess! But seriously I was diagnosed with gall bladder disease after a few visits to the ER in horrid pain. After letting them know I was an ex-addict they still hit me with (at different times but all within a 5 hour period) 16 MG’s of Morphine, around the same of Dilaudid, Demerol and then Fentanyl. I think within the first 3 hours of being there I had all of these…the first shot of morphine when I got there and the other 8 Mg’s before I had my CAT scan. WELL. They didn’t work. I guess I have really fucked myself when it comes to ever being in actual pain. The doctor actually told me even after I had all these other medications in me if I wanted to try some Ketamine. Really? No thanks I said. She explained since the narcotics weren’t working that a whole pole of K would put me out “really well”. Doctor or drug pusher? I’m not quite sure. I don’t like Ketamine though so I had to decline. I was given an enema before the CAT scan and some iodine through my IV which made me really warm and tingly. Am I giong to become an iodine addict now? So enough drug talk..back to the enema. Let’s talk about poop. Oh, I so love being a patient at the hospital instead of the one helping people. I milk that shit. I had two gowns on to cover my butt, I took full advantage of the warm towels, the nurse button, the I want this, can you get me that routine! Oh and that enema. She told me not to worry nobody ever really craps on the CAT scan table. Guess who crapped on the CAT scan table? Yeah..me. She told me to go ahead and get up after we were done. I explained it was uhh …wet down there. UH OH she SCREAMED. (How embarrassing lady) She sends me with two new gowns and a bag for my undies to the bathroom and sends a cute little Asian girl to my aide with wet wipes. Thanks but I can wipe my own ass after I lose control of my bowels. I almost forgot my panties and the girl told me OH YOU ARE FORGETTING YOUR _insert foreign word for panties here_. SO CUTE. She put them in a bag for me and pushed me into the wheelchair and started pushing me fast like I was 4. I loved it. Back in my room where my mom was waiting I came out and asked for a diaper. I wanted the fashionable white pull ups but nope …had to have the giant blue one. I couldn’t even get it on alone so my mom had no problem taping the sides for me. …Quick intermission. It’s 5am and my eyes are closing. Tomorrow I’ll finish my crap story!
Shelley, where the fuck are you?
Comment or e-mail me @ saaliha (AT) gmail.com ASAP. I need to talk to you and I can’t for the life of me find your blogger journal.
WHERE ARE YOU?
People think it’s drug abuse but it’s really depression. Guns don’t kill people …yes they do. Life is hard and I want to quit. Running on empty, the gas is low, going on fumes now about to run out. Dissolving that orange flavored pill under your tongue makes it all okay now.
Red Bull @ 7am and foreign movies. My kind of day. Time will tell.
Sad.
Has anybody seen this movie: http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0118141/ ? Comment if you have. I took my cam down. Sorry. I have my reasons but don’t want to share them. I miss the “group” but such is life. You move on from silly things.
I know this sounds so dramatic and cheesy but seriously I have been lost in a world of pain and anger. Everything is coming down around me and I’m drowning with everything but the top of my head above the surface. Just barely breathing. Just barely alive. Maybe I’ll go under. Maybe I’ll just let myself sink. Maybe.
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/21697367/
I know I’m not around on a regular basis but when the above has settled I’ll be back.
X’s and many O’s.
Check out this video: “This Halloween” Video / Nikki Katt
Everyday is Halloween when you go out to the bar. Well in this city.
