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You aren’t a detective.  I repeat NOT A DETECTIVE!

So I went tanning today for 10 minutes. Big mistake. My ass and back hurt like a bitch. Drugs would sure come in handy right now. I didn’t think 10 minutes would turn me into a fucking lobster. Ouch! Speaking of lobsters … this giant deep sea pod is going to be the death of us all. THE DEATH I TELL YOU.

That is so scary. So, so scary. Anyway! I just got done dissolving my suboxone. I feel like the effects of it might be wearing off but I can’t change my dose until I have a visit with my DR. We keep going up and down, up and down, everytime I see him and I think he’s getting mad at me. I was going to be kicked out of the program beacuse I was arrested but because I told him the truth and didn’t keep it from him he let me stay. I am really thankful because if it wasn’t for the Sub I don’t know if I could stay clean through my program. I know that I can’t live with a felony charge because it would put a hold on any career I wanted. I was charged with a class B felony and as far as I know that can’t be expunged. Meth is a class C because (this is what the DA told me so excuse me if I’m wrong) it HAS ‘medicinal properties’ … heroin and pot however do not. Uh? Doesn’t make much sense does it? Basically it’s better to be arrested for meth then it is for pot. Well if you have over 1oz of pot it’s going to be a class B. So lame. Well I’m babbling now, my entire body is red and on fire and I just ate a sleeping pill. OH that reminds me. I have been taking Ambien so that I can sleep at night and something weird happened last night. I took my normal 10mg of Ambien and I guess I took it upon myself to take 3 more! I don’t know why I did that but it’s really scary because I could have had a seizure. Anybody else have any weird experiences with Ambien? I’m off to “surf” the web before bed time …here are some photos. <3333

Gah I forgot to mention I’m having a huge problem staying at my apartment alone. I have a one bedroom apartment and so far I have stayed at my parent’s house for over 2 months. I haven’t stepped foot into my apartment for over a month. What’s up?

So very white.

So very old!

So very pink!

Slowly I am adding my favorite links to the “Links” section. I came across this bad ass baby of a link: http://www.rent-a-dildo.com/ …omg? Who would rent a sex toy? That’s like cleaning out a toilet and eating off of it just because it’s cleaned. So gross. SO, SO gross.

I’m having trouble paying some of my bills. A friend told me about a site that can help you pay some of those doctor bills off if you had a job but were out of work due to illness or whatever buuuuuuuut I lost the link. Anybody know what the URL is? Aside from the lack of $$ coming my way I basically am working, going to meetings and sitting on my fat ass. I play with my dog, talk to a few select friends, read and bullshit online. Boring!

Am I so tired? Why?

Work is killing me. I passed my step one and now it’s uh step two. I had to stand up and read outloud a 1.5 page paper and it just about killed me. I was so nervous my hands were shaking and I thought I might crap my pants. People just don’t understand now humiliating it is for some to get up and read something like that. It sucked. Oh yeah click this: