Seedless

I have yelled at some as you have cried at my feet, I have had to fuck your best friend to finally drop the bomb that ITS OVER, get it? got it good?  I have bit my tongue so many times as I have been talked down upon in and out of my presenc.  My fucking gossipy goddamn neighboor is outside… ever since I told him not to talk to me ever again and get away now.  He left but than this grown man is like a goddamn gossip queen.  I’d bettcha a dollar he is talkin shit about me this second, God Bless Him, sigh…

I have injected heroin into my veins in fromt of my ’sober’ish’ who thinks I am ’sober’ish kinda, cough girlfriend[s] that classification is defintitely worth as I have had a few.  Worked on one chick when I did but the other g/f she barely batted an eyelash.  I cant remember a girlfriend that broke up with me,I cant remember a girl friend that I picked up.  They all come to me, vain sounding but its true albeit I am in a slump but when it rains it pours.  I guess looking back at my relationships I am a shrug, user of the female body.   La, Di Da Di, we like to party  We dont cause trouble , we dont bother nobody and nobody bother me.

I saw Jimmy at an appt. he feels really sorry about how this all turned out but that not his fault he has the strength to be the one to rise to a higher cloud.  Simple request, LEAVE ME ALONE…  That doesn’t mean that I am right in anyway, butleave it be you dont have to stand in his driveway nest to Jimmies talking shit abou me to his wife for ehhhh 25 min.  In the rain mind you just so myself and the people in my house can hear them @4:15 am.  Grow up Get over it, FUCK.

Lord give me forgiveness for all that I have done, dear god.

Such a beatiful day here in Wildrose, Full Moon Fever and whack hacks, behind your back like a girlfriend that tries to hide she is not a cocaine addict.  I just want to scream.  Peace to Clint sitting on lockdown for the next 10-12 more years 4 drug enduced homicide[first case if that bullshit law got a conviction on, some extacy Overdose the mother rallied the state senate, etc. to lobby for a new law that if you were the one that gave the said deceased person the drugs that he/she/it OD on that person faces Homicide charges, remember if reading back, Write Clint.  I guess Peace to Joey also as I believe he was more at fault definetly and since he hasnt been to the joint he gets of in a easy 5 yrs or so.  It was a life carelessly contributed to the death by to childhood friends.  There all in jail, sick on the streets, high as hell, on methadone, dead, or dead to me.  What good is justice if the scales are bent by a criminal government.

Peace and God Bless All,

Seedless

Jimmy has been having vivid dreams as of late…   The main one is time for a geographical relocation.  North East, Oregon…?  As he dreams he is disturbed by the lack of daily life’s the neighbors have, LEAVE ME ALONE, get a fucking life.  When somebody says, to another “Leave me alone I don’t want to talk to you.”  You honor there request not ring… ring… ring… the neighbooooringgghood telephone game begins.  It is so pathetic to see these grown up? people trying to slide on by with there normal days, yet they gossip, gossip, gossip.  THERE IS NOTHING TO GOSSIP about, jeeez already.  What do you want from Jimmy.  Personally when one saysto someone don’t talk to me, and next thing Jimmy knows is that Warbble, Warbble, zooooooom…  and he is back in frick’n Junior High School, get a clue shit.  Its almost laughable but it is agravatting as FUCK and in his dreams Jimmy truely feel sorry for some of these people, is this for what their life’s they have sought…? Gossipping about some figment of their imaginations concerning a kid who likes to garden and work on bikes, so I dont have a job, Got a problem with it?  Off to work now, scoot, scoot…  Mind yur P&Q’s.  Flipping the notepad to a more mature page…

Jimmy has been taking it easy he has been writing a ton on ink and paper but not so much on the computer.  My life is boring, its a coin toss.  Don’t pay attention and it just might be your loss. Time out Cereal…

Peace and God Bless,

Seedless

Nurl I spy you thru the frost covered evergreeens…
Cellphones dead, thru it in a garbage can.
HPS and over head fans
Hot chicks with 9′ cola buds laying on the beach, tan

That squirming coil it got away
What more can I say
Its another day, god do I pray
Hey, puff puff pass, whatchoo doing with that J?

K? Joo got K-hole?  Not my playground
I have been found but now I am lost
doublecrossed, words are starting to melt into sounds
I lay my head down on the rock covered in green soft moss
Its a coin toss

This rut is to deep, cant make the leap
Instead I will just complain about it, let me clear my throat…
start bailing the were going to lose the boat
The Ship of Fools, look at all those oblivious kids nodding off and shirts stained with drool

I’ll school you in you botanic babble
with my words your world starts to unravel
the sound of the gavel.  Smash!!!

Goes the glass pipe tossed out of the window going 75 mph
Look at this injection site, think its some kinda rash?
Crazy Fool, liberated asylum threat…

Poster Child of the future to Kool for my time
Ms…. I want a orange for my beer not a wedge of lime
Listen to Jimmy whine
Its quarter to six and half past nine.

Get a grip man, cant you grasp it, dont you understand???
Here Ill give you a hand…
Rocking American Bandstand like a 1960’s curvy automobile
Mason jars with rubber seals
My head hurts

Its early morning as Jimmy wakes from a sleeping pill sleep, rubbing his eyes.  He reaches and grabs a nice cola he picked the previous day.  Sparkling in crystals, he is in awe…  God damn I love you mary jane.  I few deeps rips and the peaceful easy feeling flows over him.  He curses the buracracy that keeps him from sanity and away from many pharmacueticals.  Such a nice simple plant to grow, Jimmy feels energized as he stretches and looks at the dual rows of different strains he tried out this year and he is looking for a solid outdoor early harvester.  Bubblegum and bursting everGreen fill his nasal passage, whats not coated with some narcotic of some sort.  The morning dew is is sparkling in the morning light as if there were thousands of tiny mirrors all shine pinpoints of light

OVERGROW, will continue time for some solitude.

Peace,

Seedless

The train isnt masking any stops, what should I do if I want to get off the train?  The train is traveling 78 mph  and I am on a 357 mile journey, I think I am some where near the far far west midwest.  The train car is lite by my lighter as I pull a joint and do the math.  A] I am a psuedo metaphysical manifestation that this is mearly a human game, you know like the ’stupid dog’ trick.  The atoms are swirling around me at a intense force they start to glow with that familiar golden white, find me in a field of grass, mother natures son.  I embrace the knowledge I already know simple thru faith and knowledge of the manipulation of the magnetic field.  Throw in the elementary tactics of pure imagination, the power of suggestion is a terrible thing to waste if you are unjedi’d in the ways of the force, Personally if there were teams [i.e. sepration] I would be on the ninja, junky needs a fix, jedi, phreak you out shit, than you remembered in some dream you sampled some D.O.B.  L.S.D.’s strange cousin that never really comes to the family gatherings but its presence has formed on of the quadric molar of a portal in a public place.  Sexy Sadie you’ll get yours yet, just a smile would lighten everything.

SMILE SMILE SMILE

Check, One Check Two, what the fuck is up with you?

Hidden in a costume, pretending to know a secret thats make-believe, or living a reality expounded to a mathematical power of 3.  Living your secret world, no ties to the real world.  A mind full of desires and the strong feeling of wanting to excel in in a career that I love with a passion [doh’ no slave to the man, get your hands, narcs, recordings, DNA swabs, false arrests, cops that lie [Hey, there only human right?  I guess if you forget about there squirming tail. they go squealing off, extroting, set-ups, dellphone monitoring, GPS cell phone 3 point pinpointing, GPS magnets the snakes attach to your car when they “call” you in, Yeah buddy your going to get me to talk with out my cop eating lawyer to tell you to fuck off.  Some people disgust me not just cops, most drone humans, the ones that dont believe, the ones with no faith, the liars, gelatin mold suburban nights, my neighboors [this means you reading this ;)].

For the majority of the population they have the wool pulled over there eyes and some are to stupid to know some are to stupid to care.  The select amount of the ?human population the have a clue.  A country founded with blood, its fingers stained a darcranberry red

I have been keepin busy lately, repainting a old mountain bike, in the process of building a single-speed [3-5 gears in back, haven’t decided], and I have a ‘69 Schwinn Tandem bike I am going to restore, in the mean time,  I have been ready’ing my cacti for there dormant period and the slow process of gettting them accustom to the indoors.  After growing for 3.5 yrs. this is the first year I had to prune, which basicall quadruples my cacti garden come spring and the cuttings come out of dormancy and take root.  I could try rooting them now but truthfully I dont feel like I deadicate 1-6 hrs a day on my babies, I have a worm farm, my special black gold compost and yet ANOTHER journal following the growth of my cacti, in there various forms, sizes, temps, cuttings, soil mixes, you name it…  I have been reading a little bit but I really have been picking up my paintbrush and finishing [or trying to] one of the 3-6 half painted paintings I have.  Getting ready to embrace Autumn as it is my favorite season and my Birthday is just a turn of a orang’eish leaf away, God last year at this time, if I remember correct, yeah I was still with the lying, negative, greedy, money obsessed, closet coke and speed slut.  What a waste of time that was.  I just dont understand people that think so much of themselves yet they are truly disgusting the self image she would project fraud, fake, baloney, such a dispecable person.  Truly sick in the head and I hope she gets some help, which she isn’t I am sure she does what she does best lie and snort coke.  I am surrounded by liars, thiefs, and no-good people except for a very, very few.  Enough wasted time on that, how did that even come up, oh my birthday…

I have SOOOOOO many crystals and rocks its insane, I gotta do something about that.

Outta Xanies I hate when I run out, now its Ativan, Klonopin, and Ambien for my benzo routine, which I am going to start keeping a log of my intake to get things situated and settled and decreased.  I have been forgetting things lately at quite an alarming rat, during a conversation it is routine that I forget COMPLETELY the topic I was JUST talking about, sometimes I just play it off totally confused, other times depending whom I am with I will ask, “What was I just saying…” or “What were we talking about” like it even matters its all fake.

I plan to hit my weights and get more into shape, which I am in great shape at the moment, but I lack on the lifting aspect of my exercise routine, which is a minimum of 20 miles mountain biking a day.  I literally never sit down and watch  tv, or just relax, I am always doing something go figure…    Right now I am gettting of this mindless electronic box that just deducts not adds to [only in convenience IMO] MY physical life, if read the bible just a fraction of the time I mindlessly waste on here, I would be such a better person.

To whomever took my BROKEN MP3 player, with earphones that work for my phone not the mp3 player, give um back, its so pathetic that you steal, oh buyin one on ebay.  Will see.  Could of had it for free, but your shady.  No more rocks, in the red over your head and you spin endlessly out of control, lies, the forgetting to mention, etc, etc., and on and on grab hold of a rope as the bottom is soon going to fall out.  TELL THE TRUTH, I can see thru you like a fucking window, I mean come on at least try to lie good…  Just wait, just wait…

Headaches, negativity, I want nothing to do with it, all ties are being cut, and I am retiring to South America, come and try and find me there, hahahaahahahaahhaha

The MadCap Laughs’ while doing dew angels in your front grass, geeked up on more snow than Aspen…

I see trees of green, red roses too
I see them bloom for me and you
And I think to myself, what a wonderful world

I see skies of blue and clouds of white
The bright blessed day, the dark sacred night
And I think to myself, what a wonderful world

The colours of the rainbow, so pretty in the sky
Are also on the faces of people going by
I see friends shakin’ hands, sayin’ “How do you do?”
They’re really saying “I love you”

I hear babies cryin’, I watch them grow
They’ll learn much more than I’ll ever know
And I think to myself, what a wonderful world
Yes, I think to myself, what a wonderful world

Oh yeah
Oh yeah baby, give it to me you little slut, shake dat ass..

God Bless, Peace & Love,
Seedless [Signing off from a forgotten place, and a remembered time, access my network I can access you head]